A couple of days ago, on my private post I read a post and It brought me to tears, cause I don't know if my fans and or if my fans even care. (since most people that think of me just think of me in sexual terms, lol! and that's okay cause mostly that's what I been putting out here in the Universe) But I am a very complex being with very deep emotions and feelings.
Anyways I shared the post on my timeline and wrote a comment, never looking back at it till this morning and thought Wow! Imma share this on my blog spot, I wonder how my fans and friends will take it and or do they even know just how deep I go at times, that I'm just not this crazy lady out here fucking and showing my ass to the world without thought and a cause. Even though some would say it's still not a good enough cause if you say you love God! You should sit and wait on HIM to give and answer to you. But people that simple is just not how it works, I only wish that it worked like that, boy do I wish It worked like that! And it's not to say I regret any of what I've done and or OMG SaXXX is turning into one of those! I'm still the same as I ever been, but a lot of you just don't know I am and have been so much more then what you have seen and thought up of me. So anyways here is the post Imma share it as it was copied okay?
Please enjoy the read, cause I just laugh when I get these people that write me telling me "Dam why you write so much'' or ''Thats to much to read'' ! Im like what the hell is wrong with short minded people?
Wow# am I #nsyc! I just posted on my ig. How I weekly get my ass in gear to do any and all that I must, to ensure that me and mine survived, and still do even in my pain! Even when others have seemed to block my every progress with what they wanted of me, not taken Seriously what it was I was saying I WANTED FOR ME! I just keep pushing, I will my self, mind, body and soul to never give up or in! The Devil and the people he go through to use against me, are a LIE! I'm Older and Wiser then I was at one time, and daily I pray, yep even me! I PRAY! To continue doing what I must, and what I want, and also that THE GOD THAT KNOWS MY WHYs, will gently handle my Sins! Cover me in His UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND GRACE! Until the paths of life that I was Grated lines up with what I And He knows this ROAD Will indeed one day lead me. People I believe and love my Lord, and I have know right from wrong, but I as a mother and a woman will never as long as I have breath let go of fighting to do whatever it takes for me and mine! You dont know my life nor reasons for why I am and or do what I do, but I know HE knows, and He has placed His grace all around me, even when the church kicked me out at 15 pregnant from an assault! HE kept me! Homeless normous times with not one family member or friend to come to me and my little daughter rescue, you ppl don't know me! But yet here I stand, barely and Boldly! I will never give, nope not until it's My ONE AND ONLY FATHER THAT IS IN HEAVEN AND IN MY HEART AND SOUL, THAT GIVES ME DAILY STRENGHT TO FIGHT AND PRESS ON, COMES TO GET ME! Man had there chance to show me true real unconditional love, but abused that right with me for all the rest of my days I live, I will never Place my trust in them (ppl) EVER AGAIN! I'm holding out until I close me eyes in death to open them to JESUS! Who TRULY KNOWS MY WHYS AND LOVED ME UNCONDITIONALLY AND IN SPITE OF WHO EVERYONE ELSE FAILS TO SEE TRULY I WAS HERE ON EARTH!