Thursday, November 12, 2015

WHY #SAXXX AKA SAXXXJUST4U Is SUCH A BAD OLDER HOT CHICK?

HI #SAXXXNATION #MSJ #SASJ4U #VIP #ESCORTLOVERS # MYLOVERS #FANS #FOLLOWERS

I Was Once On Of The Top Erotic Dancers WAY Back When! LOL! I Still Love To Dance But Now Im A LOT SMOOTHER ..... giggling my ass of right now :)

Guys I Love Beauty And Love and Like JaZZ Now At 48, I've become wiser and a little more reserved Im for the Calm at HEAR MAN! The Guy That Wants To Lay N Chill With a Sip Of Wine and Take His Time Making Sure To Not Damage Things, But That WE Both Are Satisfide!

I Like Those Classic Men!.....

Looking For Me #MsSaXyJackson is the Code Name To Search For! Until Then Imma Put This Up For Ya!

Sunday, November 8, 2015

WHY IS #SAXXX #SAXXXJUST4U THE WAY SHE IS? WHAT HAPPEN TO HER?

Hi There,
I am SaXXX! AKA SAXXXJUST4U aka SExYaSSSaXXX and Now MsSaXyJackson
Im Written this to my True Fans! To those that really want the truth! I am a older women of 48 soon to be 50 in 2 years! I have been in the world of sex for over 23 years, but for the past 9 or so going at it a little harder! One of my Biggest reason for getting into this field was to be able to be Self Reliant Not To Become Famous and or For Attention like so many others are seeking. I knew earlier on that I was looking at the very truthful SOBBERING FACT that My Doctors told me Im going to be becoming Disabled! Now Im Not looking for sympathy from people or to make anyone feel sad for me.
I was working the Back Pages as an escort when I was approached by someone to be there partner, I gave it a try not due to them but due to the people he associated with at that time everything I was to do with that person went down the drain. Now Im Going to make this all shorter, the next couple of ventures went pretty much the same! EVERYONE STOLE MONEY, FOOTAGE, AND OR THOUGHT I WAS SUPPOSE TO GIVE MY EVERYTHING and BE DISRESPECTED and NOT SUPPORTED EVEN WHEN I GOT RAPED AND STILL MADE IT THE NEXT DAY TO AN EVEN, MY OWN TEAM BETRAYED MY PRIVATE BUSINESS! EVERYONE I HAVE MET IN "THE BIZ" HAS FUCKED ME OVER AND CAUSED ME TO NOT TRUST ANY ONE IN THAT FIELD! Iv'e Had PORN STAR TELL ME IM NOT A PORN STAR and I WAS TOLD MANY YEARS AGO A PORN STAR IS SOMEONE THAT HAS DVD's and PUT IN 300 SCENES Or More, I Haven't Done Any OF That THIS IS WHY I DONT CONSIDER MYSELF A PORN STAR PEOPLE! BUT IM GOOD WITH IT ALL
CAUSE EVEN JUST HOW PEOPLE IN THE BIZ COME TALKING DOWN TO ME FUCKS WITH ME So........

Fans I Hate Being Told what to do, more over I hate the whole Black Guy Pimping the Black Women Thing! Probably Because when I was about 14 I was taken by a guy I though was my older boyfriend he beat me and put me to work on the streets in Miami, Florida on the Biscayne Blvd! I was Beat and raped every Day and Night for months until I escaped him!
My Home life was not so cool either cause My Mother was Never around or there for me! Anyways! But when My Mom Did Have it together She Taught me life was out here can be very hard on a Beautiful Women! Shit On a women Period! And Boy I Think That Alone Became a Curse for Me!
When Im not even trying to be sexy This It Seems is all MEN SEE IN ME!
So After 3 Babies one from rape 2 abortions, all by age 20! I tried living my life but ever where I turn there was a Man With His Dick In his hand Wanting to Fuck Me and Enslave Me! I Tried To Look At It As Love, But then My First Husband Beat Me and Became a Coke Head and Bank Robber! I left him Having to Pay for my Own Divorce and Become Homeless because I wanted away from him so Badly!
Not to fret Through hustle and sleeping on the subway This young lady offered me to stay with her. So I did for a little while things where great, she even took me into her temp agency where I landed a job temping, but then she became Controlling and wanted me to join in with her and guys! I mean she smoke weed like 24/7 walked around the house naked with her little thirteen yr old daughter cursing and fighting daily!
I advanced at work and some how got a Permanent Spot! YES! Right I moved out into my on lil spot YES! Right! I Then Worked hard but you know us I got lonely and met this what I thought Beautiful Bother own his on casting company. Next thing you know Im moving to help him and not long after that Im finding out he doesnt want me wearing heels, that he believes the only reason I got my Job is because Im cute! Then The Big Fight and The SMASHING OF MY FACE! BEING THROWN DOWN STAIRS AND KICKED N PUNCHED!
Years Later I got up enough strength to wait til he left for work and I rain for my dear life! Once again Im in a Shelter, because I had been laid off so.....
I had met this Gay Guy that was doing Fashion shows and he knew that I was once a model and love my walk and work. He ask me if I would show his team what I knew and I did, one night it lasted late into the night so I lost my spot at the shelter. He gave me a place to stay and Taught me about
Escorting!
On My Very First Booking I Caught a Regular 800 a visit for over 2 yrs this went on until he invited me to come live with him! I did Bet you can't guess what Happen? Nope he did n't beat me but He CHEATED OVER N OVER even sneaking out the house as Im sleeping next to him, even taken out pay day advances and using our pictures to get women! After another 6 yrs wasted of my life, one night he comes home and I catch him, he calls me a STUPID BITCH and That He Has been paying my bills and I Had No Where else to go so Deal with it!
Fans Now Ya'll Know! I grab all my shit and drugged it to the door, he tried to stop me and I almost Knifed his ass! I SNAPPED I Had Had IT! So Once again Bad Luck SAXXX HOMELESS? NOT! I found a rooming house and made the best of being to my DAM SELF and Promising myself to never feel LONELY again! I Prayed alot and Hustle Hard!
Til one snowing day I slipped and My Back and Neck got Severely damaged but what I didnt know was it was all from the BEATING I have taken throughout especially the one from my 2nd husband! That Shattered My Face and Threw me down the subway steal stairs!
People I now have to take over 6 meds for pain and have to have really strong meds pumped into my back because they can't removed a cyst I have wrapped around my spine! I suffer Severe Head aches from the bones that where smashed in my face and my left kidney is damaged! Fans I Had No Ideal all this was wrong with me for a long time I covered my pains up with alcohol and over the counter meds!
I have for about 4 -5 yrs now been trying hard to do my own, Stand on my own, Live and remain on my own! Do and create my Own LEGIT BUSINESS Soon TOO! I hurt in a many ways but I know don't no one care! I tried telling my few friends all this but people just dont care and or take you serious or just got there own worries!
So I don't Bother people and I go about doing my little things on my OWN Praying That I will Have time before all my Disabilities go into full swing and im down for the count!
Fans This is why I seem So Hard! I have told my Story in parts on twitter and if you could go down my timeline you would be floored!
 I am a SURVIVOR! I dont ask for hand outs but I do ask for RESPECT! I Dont want to ever be tide to a man again, but our mini visit is all cool! And Can You Blame Me? I dont want to be in Partnership with anyone either, I didn't go into drastic details but I HATE The WAY the BIZ IS! THE DEGRADATION OF FEMALES BY BLACK MEN and THEN THE GAUL OF SOME OF THESE WHITE GUYS!
But I know it's Only Because so many females have allowed this type treatment to seem as though its the in thing!
Fuck That! AS A WOMEN That Has SURVIVED NUMEROUS RAPES, BEATINGS, VERBAL ABUSE ETC BY THE HANDS OF MEN! I Can TELL YOU ITS NOT COOL AT ALL!
So Guys SEE WHY I DEMAND YOU SHOW ME YOUR NOT GOING TO TREAT ME AND OR EVEN FOR THE SHORT TIME COME AT ME IN SUCH WAYS! I HAVE TAKEN ENOUGH SHIT FROM MEN and THE BIZ!
ALL I WANT NOW IS TO DO MY SHIT WITH GRACE AND CLASS, TREAT YOU WITH THE SAME RESPECT YOU TREAT ME WITH AND MAKE THE BEST OF THE REST OF THIS MESSY LIFE I HAVE LEFT!
Im Not GOOD AT STAYING ON TRACK Cause I Have So Many Hurts and So Much To SCREAM ABOUT! But I try hard to control my EMOTIONS, Well UNTIL SOME ASSHOLE CROSS THE LINES!
But Im HOPING THIS GIVES YOU A DEEPER LOOK INTO MY PSYCHE? UNDERSTAND ME GET ME NOW! ALL I WANT IS TO LIVE AS SAFE AS I CAN ON MY OWN AND MY OWN TERMS!
I GREATLY APPRECIATE YOU GUYS TAKING TIME TO READ AND TRY AND GET ME!

PS I Still LOVE MOST MEN, ( NOT THE ABUSIVE VULGAR ONES!)
 BUT I LOVE MY LIFE MORE, If You RESPECT ME AND MY WISHES, THEN I WILL RESPECT YOU and YOURS WITHIN REASON! I Dont Do Well With Pushy MEN!