A couple of days ago, on my private post I read a post and It brought me to tears, cause I don't know if my fans and or if my fans even care. (since most people that think of me just think of me in sexual terms, lol! and that's okay cause mostly that's what I been putting out here in the Universe) But I am a very complex being with very deep emotions and feelings.
Anyways I shared the post on my timeline and wrote a comment, never looking back at it till this morning and thought Wow! Imma share this on my blog spot, I wonder how my fans and friends will take it and or do they even know just how deep I go at times, that I'm just not this crazy lady out here fucking and showing my ass to the world without thought and a cause. Even though some would say it's still not a good enough cause if you say you love God! You should sit and wait on HIM to give and answer to you. But people that simple is just not how it works, I only wish that it worked like that, boy do I wish It worked like that! And it's not to say I regret any of what I've done and or OMG SaXXX is turning into one of those! I'm still the same as I ever been, but a lot of you just don't know I am and have been so much more then what you have seen and thought up of me. So anyways here is the post Imma share it as it was copied okay?
Please enjoy the read, cause I just laugh when I get these people that write me telling me "Dam why you write so much'' or ''Thats to much to read'' ! Im like what the hell is wrong with short minded people?
Wow# am I #nsyc!
I just posted on my ig. How I weekly get my ass in gear to do any and
all that I must, to ensure that me and mine survived, and still do even
in my pain! Even when others have seemed to block my every progress with
what they wanted of me, not taken Seriously what it was I was saying I
WANTED FOR ME! I just keep pushing, I will my self, mind, body and soul
to never give up or in! The Devil and the people he go through to use
against me, are a LIE! I'm Older and
Wiser then I was at one time, and daily I pray, yep even me! I PRAY! To
continue doing what I must, and what I want, and also that THE GOD THAT
KNOWS MY WHYs, will gently handle my Sins! Cover me in His UNCONDITIONAL
LOVE AND GRACE! Until the paths of life that I was Grated lines up with
what I And He knows this ROAD Will indeed one day lead me. People I
believe and love my Lord, and I have know right from wrong, but I as a
mother and a woman will never as long as I have breath let go of
fighting to do whatever it takes for me and mine! You dont know my life
nor reasons for why I am and or do what I do, but I know HE knows, and
He has placed His grace all around me, even when the church kicked me
out at 15 pregnant from an assault! HE kept me! Homeless normous times
with not one family member or friend to come to me and my little
daughter rescue, you ppl don't know me! But yet here I stand, barely and
Boldly! I will never give, nope not until it's My ONE AND ONLY FATHER
THAT IS IN HEAVEN AND IN MY HEART AND SOUL, THAT GIVES ME DAILY STRENGHT
TO FIGHT AND PRESS ON, COMES TO GET ME! Man had there chance to show me
true real unconditional love, but abused that right with me for all the
rest of my days I live, I will never Place my trust in them (ppl) EVER
AGAIN! I'm holding out until I close me eyes in death to open them to
JESUS! Who TRULY KNOWS MY WHYS AND LOVED ME UNCONDITIONALLY AND IN SPITE
OF WHO EVERYONE ELSE FAILS TO SEE TRULY I WAS HERE ON EARTH!
When
you have a warrior mentality, an attitude of faith, knowing that you’ve
been equipped and empowered, all the forces of darkness cannot stop
you.
