WHY IS #SAXXX #SAXXXJUST4U THE WAY SHE IS? WHAT HAPPEN TO HER?

Hi There,
I am SaXXX! AKA SAXXXJUST4U aka SExYaSSSaXXX and Now MsSaXyJackson

Im Written this to my True Fans! To those that really want the truth! I am a older women of 48 soon to be 50 in 2 years! I have been in the world of sex for over 23 years, but for the past 9 or so going at it a little harder! One of my Biggest reason for getting into this field was to be able to be Self Reliant Not To Become Famous and or For Attention like so many others are seeking. I knew earlier on that I was looking at the very truthful SOBBERING FACT that My Doctors told me Im going to be becoming Disabled! Now Im Not looking for sympathy from people or to make anyone feel sad for me.

I was working the Back Pages as an escort when I was approached by someone to be there partner, I gave it a try not due to them but due to the people he associated with at that time everything I was to do with that person went down the drain. Now Im Going to make this all shorter, the next couple of ventures went pretty much the same! EVERYONE STOLE MONEY, FOOTAGE, AND OR THOUGHT I WAS SUPPOSE TO GIVE MY EVERYTHING and BE DISRESPECTED and NOT SUPPORTED EVEN WHEN I GOT RAPED AND STILL MADE IT THE NEXT DAY TO AN EVEN, MY OWN TEAM BETRAYED MY PRIVATE BUSINESS! EVERYONE I HAVE MET IN "THE BIZ" HAS FUCKED ME OVER AND CAUSED ME TO NOT TRUST ANY ONE IN THAT FIELD! Iv'e Had PORN STAR TELL ME IM NOT A PORN STAR and I WAS TOLD MANY YEARS AGO A PORN STAR IS SOMEONE THAT HAS DVD's and PUT IN 300 SCENES Or More, I Haven't Done Any OF That THIS IS WHY I DONT CONSIDER MYSELF A PORN STAR PEOPLE! BUT IM GOOD WITH IT ALL
CAUSE EVEN JUST HOW PEOPLE IN THE BIZ COME TALKING DOWN TO ME FUCKS WITH ME So........

Fans I Hate Being Told what to do, more over I hate the whole Black Guy Pimping the Black Women Thing! Probably Because when I was about 14 I was taken by a guy I though was my older boyfriend he beat me and put me to work on the streets in Miami, Florida on the Biscayne Blvd! I was Beat and raped every Day and Night for months until I escaped him!
My Home life was not so cool either cause My Mother was Never around or there for me! Anyways! But when My Mom Did Have it together She Taught me life was out here can be very hard on a Beautiful Women! Shit On a women Period! And Boy I Think That Alone Became a Curse for Me!
When Im not even trying to be sexy This It Seems is all MEN SEE IN ME!
So After 3 Babies one from rape 2 abortions, all by age 20! I tried living my life but ever where I turn there was a Man With His Dick In his hand Wanting to Fuck Me and Enslave Me! I Tried To Look At It As Love, But then My First Husband Beat Me and Became a Coke Head and Bank Robber! I left him Having to Pay for my Own Divorce and Become Homeless because I wanted away from him so Badly!
Not to fret Through hustle and sleeping on the subway This young lady offered me to stay with her. So I did for a little while things where great, she even took me into her temp agency where I landed a job temping, but then she became Controlling and wanted me to join in with her and guys! I mean she smoke weed like 24/7 walked around the house naked with her little thirteen yr old daughter cursing and fighting daily!
I advanced at work and some how got a Permanent Spot! YES! Right I moved out into my on lil spot YES! Right! I Then Worked hard but you know us I got lonely and met this what I thought Beautiful Bother own his on casting company. Next thing you know Im moving to help him and not long after that Im finding out he doesnt want me wearing heels, that he believes the only reason I got my Job is because Im cute! Then The Big Fight and The SMASHING OF MY FACE! BEING THROWN DOWN STAIRS AND KICKED N PUNCHED!
Years Later I got up enough strength to wait til he left for work and I rain for my dear life! Once again Im in a Shelter, because I had been laid off so.....
I had met this Gay Guy that was doing Fashion shows and he knew that I was once a model and love my walk and work. He ask me if I would show his team what I knew and I did, one night it lasted late into the night so I lost my spot at the shelter. He gave me a place to stay and Taught me about
Escorting!
On My Very First Booking I Caught a Regular 800 a visit for over 2 yrs this went on until he invited me to come live with him! I did Bet you can't guess what Happen? Nope he did n't beat me but He CHEATED OVER N OVER even sneaking out the house as Im sleeping next to him, even taken out pay day advances and using our pictures to get women! After another 6 yrs wasted of my life, one night he comes home and I catch him, he calls me a STUPID BITCH and That He Has been paying my bills and I Had No Where else to go so Deal with it!
Fans Now Ya'll Know! I grab all my shit and drugged it to the door, he tried to stop me and I almost Knifed his ass! I SNAPPED I Had Had IT! So Once again Bad Luck SAXXX HOMELESS? NOT! I found a rooming house and made the best of being to my DAM SELF and Promising myself to never feel LONELY again! I Prayed alot and Hustle Hard!
Til one snowing day I slipped and My Back and Neck got Severely damaged but what I didnt know was it was all from the BEATING I have taken throughout especially the one from my 2nd husband! That Shattered My Face and Threw me down the subway steal stairs!
People I now have to take over 6 meds for pain and have to have really strong meds pumped into my back because they can't removed a cyst I have wrapped around my spine! I suffer Severe Head aches from the bones that where smashed in my face and my left kidney is damaged! Fans I Had No Ideal all this was wrong with me for a long time I covered my pains up with alcohol and over the counter meds!
I have for about 4 -5 yrs now been trying hard to do my own, Stand on my own, Live and remain on my own! Do and create my Own LEGIT BUSINESS Soon TOO! I hurt in a many ways but I know don't no one care! I tried telling my few friends all this but people just dont care and or take you serious or just got there own worries!
So I don't Bother people and I go about doing my little things on my OWN Praying That I will Have time before all my Disabilities go into full swing and im down for the count!
Fans This is why I seem So Hard! I have told my Story in parts on twitter and if you could go down my timeline you would be floored!
 I am a SURVIVOR! I dont ask for hand outs but I do ask for RESPECT! I Dont want to ever be tide to a man again, but our mini visit is all cool! And Can You Blame Me? I dont want to be in Partnership with anyone either, I didn't go into drastic details but I HATE The WAY the BIZ IS! THE DEGRADATION OF FEMALES BY BLACK MEN and THEN THE GAUL OF SOME OF THESE WHITE GUYS!
But I know it's Only Because so many females have allowed this type treatment to seem as though its the in thing!

Fuck That! AS A WOMEN That Has SURVIVED NUMEROUS RAPES, BEATINGS, VERBAL ABUSE ETC BY THE HANDS OF MEN! I Can TELL YOU ITS NOT COOL AT ALL!
So Guys SEE WHY I DEMAND YOU SHOW ME YOUR NOT GOING TO TREAT ME AND OR EVEN FOR THE SHORT TIME COME AT ME IN SUCH WAYS! I HAVE TAKEN ENOUGH SHIT FROM MEN and THE BIZ!
ALL I WANT NOW IS TO DO MY SHIT WITH GRACE AND CLASS, TREAT YOU WITH THE SAME RESPECT YOU TREAT ME WITH AND MAKE THE BEST OF THE REST OF THIS MESSY LIFE I HAVE LEFT!
Im Not GOOD AT STAYING ON TRACK Cause I Have So Many Hurts and So Much To SCREAM ABOUT! But I try hard to control my EMOTIONS, Well UNTIL SOME ASSHOLE CROSS THE LINES!
But Im HOPING THIS GIVES YOU A DEEPER LOOK INTO MY PSYCHE? UNDERSTAND ME GET ME NOW! ALL I WANT IS TO LIVE AS SAFE AS I CAN ON MY OWN AND MY OWN TERMS!
I GREATLY APPRECIATE YOU GUYS TAKING TIME TO READ AND TRY AND GET ME!

PS I Still LOVE MOST MEN, ( NOT THE ABUSIVE VULGAR ONES!)
 BUT I LOVE MY LIFE MORE, If You RESPECT ME AND MY WISHES, THEN I WILL RESPECT YOU and YOURS WITHIN REASON! I Dont Do Well With Pushy MEN!

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#SaXXX Has Never Been Good With Silly Small Talks!

I know that I seem as if I'm no fun at all, But once reaching the level I am at .... Well Let Me Give You an Im meaning! Just now as I was trying to get my work done I got a Beep from  My #FaceBook Profile, That Dam Messenger I Hate It! Never #Download That Shit! It collects your contacts! Anyways .... This is What Happen and This is How I Truly Feel When It Happens:

Fine Example of What

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20 hours ago

(Guy)Thanks for the follow back nice to meet you and happy new year

about an hour ago

(SaXXX) Ur welcome babe! Just set me to Private please so im seen only by you on your profile page, Im an #ESCORT and don't need all the drama

29 minutes ago

Ok

(Guy) Where r u from

profile page tells ya, but mainly Florida

(Guy) Ok I'm down here in Fort Lauderdale where r u

(SAXXX) ok babe whats up

did u ask to be apart of My ESCORT Profile to Book or you just saw my profile and want in ? I looked and #READ over your profile but it seems guys never do the same to mine, because if so they would see, I don't do that chat back and forth unless its money being made, I really am not trying to be mean, but Im settled and I have no other needs then that

(Guy) Ok sorry

(SaXXX) I am sorry if this offends but , just as ur attempting to chat I am in my studio's editing and posting to my many site and your asking question that if ppl take time and READ my Profiles, Scroll and research and find things out for them self ! And then maybe it would BLOW my mind when you do get me on chat that you could amaze me with how well you know things about me so I don't have to feel like a high schooler going back and forth answering small Q and A's

Don't be sorry Im just not that type of 48 yr old women, I don't really chat, nor am I looking for anyone.
(SaXXX) I understand I just wish more guys knew that all ladies aren't the same and take time to look and read over profiles of of ppl they are trying to get at! But thanks baby!

(SaXXX) So Your not looking for escort Services? is that what your saying? Cause if not then ...

(The Guy)No sweetheart just wanted to get to no u better that's all
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Guys Im Sorry That I Am About My Biz More Then Trying To Get To Know You More! Every Few Weeks I have to REMIND Guys! #Whores Are Not Looking For Chat's, Walks, Holding Hands, and all that kind of stuff!
I know who I am and Im Not INTO ALL That TYPE #Chatting About BULLSHIT for hours and Nothing! I'm just NOT That Lonely! Or Am I Interested In Most Every Day Bull! When I wanna Chat I call My Close #Friends NOT Total #Strangers! It's just not how I do things! 

And If Your thinking "Oh wow, she may find a good man or another friend by being more chat like") Um People Dont you Think I Got That In #ABUNDANCE ALREADY! Giggle! 
Hey Im just Saying, Really?!
My #Profile #Headers and #Banners Says It All For Me and Yet, Here Ya'll Go Trying to Swoon SaXXX! Na Dudes! 
But You Can #Book #SAXXX and That Way We Both Win! You Can Chat All You Want After You #Donate Those Funds! http://www.niteflirt.com/MsSaXXX
 Shit It's a Win Win, you can ask me all those #question that seems to be so very important to you, and I Can #Pay My #Bills! 
LMFAO!!!      I'm Not Mean But It's Just so #Boring and #Annoying to me ....

Hey #SAXXXNATION (Youngins) Here's a Few Things You Should Know About SaXXX Part 1

Hey I know a lot of you think of me as A Young Super Freak That's Bitchy and Dam Good at What It Is I Do! 

I thank You All So Very Much For Believing most of that about me! But really Im Not YOUNG, I'm a Very Mature 48 year old That Look and Feel like Im 23, Lol! although I look it and so many of you love to say Age ain't nothing but a Number! For me that saying does not fit! I believe in old School Terms, and I want the Respect that a person should receive after being in this world for some time, enduring somethings others may have never. With that being said I know I look great and I look as if I can drop it like it's #hot and I can. But I prefer not for a number of reasons people, ( Youngins ) LMFAO! That Contact me for #services! Yep I'm always being straight up and #honest! You see those Porn #Video's you be watching that look like a #Bitch back being broken and or a women is being #RAPED! (I Absolutely Hate Those Type Films) I'll talk about that another time though! SaXXX IS SO NOT WITH IT! Infact I Suffer from #PTSD and one time this dude called himself being #rough with me and #slapped my as while we where doing it doggy style and I turn around so fast and punch the #fuck outta him all the while forgetting the fact that I almost ripped his #dick off with my #tight #ass #pussy! ( LMFAO! No LYE) So Guys, Young Guys Especially, Ya'll get so happy and excited to be getting some MILF/GILF Pussy let alone that I even answered you, sometimes ya'll get #FILMING/#Escorting mixed up with you can do all that you want when your busy #FANTASIZING!
Well guys sorry I'm not a Fantasy I am Very Real and Some of that shit Ya'll do can hurt if not down right, That is why PORNSTARS are who they are. They are very special people with great talents and they get paid well for turning you guys on like that!
I am NOT A# PornStar, I Just do filming of my #sex-capades! I am an #PAID #ESCORT and Adult Entertainer!
I know I hate to dampen your dreams too, but I am none for being REAL! I know no other way people! But even when I was a young chick, I never liked being man handled, I love Sensual, love making, Passionate fucking! Not that shit that looks like Black on Black Crimes! I just don't see , or want to see my beautiful brothers or sista's in such a light!
I wanna see us making Passionate Exciting Love to each other, Long, Slow Deep, Strokes, back rubs and Kissing type shit! He it's my Preference! Shit I'm so serious about how I feel til it's one of my biggest reason I refuse to film with some company's or guy's that contact me! I'm just not with that look!
So Thank you So Very Much For Your Adoration and believe, I know you don't really mean any harm, it's just the way the biz has you guys thinking that that type of madness is accepted by all us females! Remember us females are not all the same! I don't know how many times I have to remind and or bench press and Nija Off me because he loses his dam mind and start going in as if he's a DEMON!
I mean I can get fucked good with out it leaving me bent over with cramps and you strutting around as if you just put me in my place! Giggle! All that does for me is shows me how much you don't care for a women Precious body, that should be very well taken care of.
Guy's sometimes you should look up the tragedies of what that type shit has done to many Ex Stars and etc. Google it Seriously! Im just saying stay informed! I know it's not as fun, right!

Also some of you younger guys and your maturity is not mature enough for me! I mean I just can't deal with the disrespect, the language, etc. So I kinda stay away from dealing with any guy younger then 29 and under! I am sorry but, I find it's best for me!
But I thank you guys I really do, for the love you have for me! And some in the biz will say Im like killing my fans base and income some what by stating this, but I don't think so at all, some of these guys are smart enough to know once they speak with me and or connect with me, They began to chill and I have allowed a few in! But I have to make this statement in General because Im getting so many coming at me and Im shocked, and tickled pink, but I just respect myself and them so much til being HONEST with the Masses I feel I Must!