HEY EVERYONE! Much LOVE N RESPECT!
I am writing this to say how much I THANK U LUSTFUL PEOPLE 😘AND THOSE OF YOU THAT FEEL I NEED MORE SUCCESS THEN WHAT YOU HAVE ASSUMED I MUST NOT HAVE AND OR ALREADY ACHIEVED!
From time to time lately, I find myself having to clear up what it is that I AM and NOW DOING!
I can only attribute this to two things!
First LET ME SAY THIS TO EVERYONE OLD AND NEW AGAIN!
I #SAXXX REALLY DO NOT CONSIDER MYSELF A PORNSTAR! ( I WAS TOLD BY QUITE A FEW TIMES BY REAL LIFE PORNSTARS WHAT A REAL #BONOFIDE PORNSTAR IS AND WHAT I DO AND HAVE NEVER NOR WILL EVER ACCOMPLISH IS BEING THERE DEFINITION OF A PORNSTAR)
I FEEL A REAL PORNSTAR ARE THOSE THAT HAVE DONE THE WORK AND RECEIVED THE AWARDS THAT GO WITH OVER 300 SCENE'S, DVD's, ETC! TO BE GIVEN AND RECOGNIZED BY SIN CITY AGENTS AND BIG WIGS!
Now I MAYBE WRONG, BUT IT'S WHAT I CONSIDER AND APPRECIATED ABOUT TRUE #PORNSTARS! Examples: VANESSA BLUE, VANESSA DEL RIO, JADA FIRE, LUCAS, JOHN E. DEPTH, SHAWN MICHAEL, DANNY BLAQ!
I NAME THESE CAUSE I KNOW THEM AS HARD WORKING, TONS OF DVDS, MAGS, AWARDS! I KNOW THERE OTHERS BUT I LIKE GIVING PROPS TO THOSE I'M A FAN OF!
Now back to my SECOND REASON!
And I was just discussing this with my 31 year old daughter!
More and MORE! The NEWER GENERATION IS BLURRING THE LINES OF EVERYTHING!
Now while I FEEL FOR THE MOST PART THIS IS A GOOD THING!
I SEE IT ALSO CAUSING GREAT CONFUSIONS!
BECAUSE IT SEEMS MOST NOW DAYS SEE ANYTHING SEXUAL ON FILM MAKES YOU AN INSTANT PORNSTAR! ( NOT SO TRUE TO ME) STOP THINKING THAT!
STOP ASSUMING AND THEN MAKING YOUR THOUGHTS OF ME AS "SAXXX YOU SHOULD DO THIS AND THAT IF YOU WANNA SUCCEED AND BE SOME BODY A (STAR, A PORNSTAR)
PEOPLE I HAVE DONE THAT IN MY 20's and 30's.... YOU ASSUME THINGS CAUSE YOU DONT READ MY BIO, BLOGS, SCROLL MY TIMES, GOOGLE MY AKA's
I AM ALL GOOD DOING WHATEVER THE FUCK I CHOOSE TO WAKE UP AND GOD GIVES MY STRENGTH AND BREATH TO DO!
I MAY WANT TO LIVE OFF MY ESCORTING AND ENJOYING THE GREAT GUYS I MET THAT WINE AND DINE FOR DONATIONS AND BECAUSE I LIKE THE WHOLE DATING FOR PAY, I GET SOME LUST TIME IN WITHOUT HAVING TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP!
PEOPLE I GOT MY DISABILITY AND SAVINGS! AND I GOT DAYS I MAY NOT WANT TO BE BOTHERED AND JUST PLAY WITH MY GRAND CHILDREN! AND NOW LET MY FAME DIE DOWN SO I CAN KINDA BE A LITTLE MORE DISCREET AND STAR SHOWING RESPECT AND A LITTLE MORE RESERVE FOR MY GRANDS FUTURE!
UNDERSTAND! I KNOW WHAT IM DOING WHEN IT COMES TO MY LIFE, MY CHOICES, YOU ONLY THINK YOU KNOW ME!
SEE IF PEOPLE WOULD READ BEFORE THEY ASSUME SHIT ABOUT PEOPLE THEY THINK THEY KNOW ALL ABOUT THEY WOULD KNOW SAXXX'S TRUTHS!
Like OVER TWO YEARS AGO I DECIDED TO NOT PURSUE BEING A PORNSTAR ANYMORE! PEOPLE ALTHOUGH I LOOK FINE AND I CAN THROW DOWN SEXUALLY, I ABSOLUTELY HATE THE RUTHLESSNESS OF THE INDUSTRY!
NO OFFENSE, BUT THE PEOPLE THAT CALLED AND EMAIL AND SPOKE TO ME WITH SUCH NASTINESS, THE VERY FEW PEOPLE I DID TRY DOING SHIT WITH, LETS JUST SAY AFTER A FEW YEARS OF THAT MADNESS AND NOT BEING PAID MY WORTH ON TOP OF ALL THE BS! SAXXX JUST DECIDED FUCK IT!
ID RATHER MAKE WHAT I WANT BEING AN ESCORT!
THIS WAY I DON'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THE PROBLEMS, WORRIES, AND DRAMA OF WHO I GOTTA STAY ON TOP OF ABOUT MY CONTENT, IF IMMA GET IT BACK OR MY COPY! AM I GONNA GET STUCK IN A ROOM OUT AT THE AWARDS TRYING TO HELP A TEAM REPRESENT OUR BRAND WITH FIVE OR NOT VERY WELL MANNERED PEOPLE WITH THAT ALWAYS 1-2 BROTHERS TRYING TO FUCK U, THEN SNEAK OTHER BITCHES IN AROUND MY VALUABLES TO FUCK, CAUSE THEY TO LAME TO GET ANOTHER ROOM, SO IM STUCK DEALIN WITH THIRSTY BULLSHIT AND MONEY, SHOES EVEN MY OUTFITS BEING STOLE!
PEOPLE OLD AND NEW LISTEN WHEN I TELL YOU!
Im OF A CERTAIN AGE, IM A SCORPIO, I HAVE CERTAIN REQUIREMENTS!
I AM NOT A TEENAGER OR A YOUNG LADY! NOR AM I THIRSTY FOR DICK, OF ANY SIZE OR RACE! NOR DO I EVEN GET EXCITED ANYMORE ABOUT WHAT MOST DO ABOUT FUCKING! WHEN ITS WITH A STRANGER, ITS A JOB FOR ME, NOT A FREAKING HAPPY GO LUCKY PAST TIME!
I NOW FILM WHAT I WANT, WHEN I WANT AND WITH WHOM I WANT AND POST, UPLOAD IT WHERE I WANT, BECAUSE I WANT! ITS NOT TO BE THE BADEST BITCH, ITS TO MAKE ENDS AND KEEP MY VIPS AND POSSIBLE VIPS ENTERTAINED!
IF I WANT A WEBSITE, A MAG, OR WHATEVER, I NOW KNOW NOW TO DIY, I CAN DO IT FOR MYSELF! BUT TRULY IM JUST RELAXING AND ENJOYING MY LIFE AS I PLEASE, I DONT FEEL LIKE ALL THAT RIGHT NOW! Okay PEOPLE?😂
SOME OF YOU SHOULD UNDERSTAND THIS, I AM NOT WHAT YOU WANT TO ASSUME OF ME!
I AM AS DIFFERENT OF A PERSON JUST YOU ARE TO EVERYONE ELSE!
MY LIFE, MY NEEDS, MY WANTS, MY DREAMS, MY UPS, MY DOWNS, MY THOUGHTS .... ARE NOT YOURS! NOR SHOULD YOU BE SO ASSURED THAT WHAT YOU FEEL MY LIFE AND BIZ SHOULD AND OR BE SO MUCH BETTER IF I DID THINGS YOUR WAY PEOPLE!
DO YOU AND STOP TRYING TO TELL ME HOW TO DO ME OR ASSUMING WHAT YOU DO....
I WILL BE AND JUST WHAT MY LIFE NEEDS ME TO AND IN GODS PERFECT TIMING, CERTAINLY NOT YOURS OKAY!
SINCERELY SAID WITH LUV,
SAXXX BKA #SAXXX JUST
